Unrest

There is a feeling that comes over me every once in a while. Most I think would define this feeling as loneliness, but I find that it runs much deeper. It is a feeling sort of like panic, or like I'm missing out on something, or am the odd one out. My heart seeks a comfort, or a substance to hold onto and entrench myself in in order to avoid whatever it is that I'm fearing. I find that this feeling comes more from an unrestful heart. My heart is often not filled with the peace that God promises to give through His spirit, and so I panic.....needing to find something to fill. I seek something that will comfort or satisfy. There is still this underlying feeling of dissatisfaction. Often I wonder why the search continues......
When God gives me times of rest, I feel as though I try to stifle the gift through my "chasing after the wind". God often speaks of peace as coming from knowing Him. The more I feel this unrest, the more I begin to believe in  this peace that comes solely from God. Being able to just be, and being ok with it. haha! This is something I need to desperately take a hold of. To just breathe in deep and exhale all of my strivings. Take a hold of each moment as He hands it to me and be thankful for it. I think that if I learned to live in this state of peace and rest, my focus would be different and my heart content.
"Be still and know that I am God"